The Seed Part 2

During junior year I began to look into religious orders. In the fall in was introduced to my first order The Daughters of St. Paul. The Daughters of Saint Paul is an apostolic order whose mission is to preach the Gospel through the media which includes music, books, and etc. Because my pastor knew I was a communication studies and played the saxophone he sent me a pamphlet on the order. Then not too long afterwards my friends priest Father Mark, said there was an order that dealt with the media called the Daughters. Was Jesus trying to tell me something? I don't know yet!! At then end of the month I was fortunate to attend the Right to Life March in Washington DC. Throughout the trip I was able to talk to our diocesan vocation Director Father O'connor. We were able to discuss my life. As our conversation progressed I talked about my worries about school and he gave me a quote which I have remember ever since. The quote is "Nail yourself to the Desk Like Christ to the Cross". I was also able to discuss my possible vocation to religious life and what steps I should take to look into religious life. He told me there was book that was full of different orders, along with their postcards so you could send for their information. Great trip Great motivation Great Man of God.

The Seed!!

The Catholic Church is a major part of my life. Ever since I was a very small child I have participated in the mass or at church functions. The first role I played at church was Baby Jesus. My parish used to incorporate the Christmas story into the mass. One year my parents played Mary and Joseph. Because I was born close to Christmas time I had the opportunity to play Baby Jesus. The funny thing is that year my brother was a wise man, and my sister was an angel!! So I guess you could say we are a "Holy Family". In third grade I became an Altar Server. Altar Serving was beneficial to my body and soul. My former pastor Father Andrew Baranski taught us many things about the mass and the Catholic Church. As an Altar Server I had the opportunity to meet the Bishop on the Altar, and help him during
confirmations. Besides Altar Serving, I played my saxophone for the music ministry. Playing my saxophone for numerous occasions help me to Praise God and give him Glory. To this day I continue to participate in services at my Newman center and at my home parish.

I am coming to realization that I want to Serve God through my music, and possibly the written word. Particularly at the Daughters of Saint Paul.
I have to thank (blame) JK Father Andrew Baranski for planting the seed for me to think about joining religious life. It was one fall confirmation and I was helping serve for a confirmation. When the Bishop was giving the final annoucement he briefly discussed how we need young people to be witnesses of Christ love. While the Bishop was talking Father Andrew whispered in my ear that I should consider joining religious life. I joked to him that I would become a priest before I become a nun. Fast Forwarding to my junior year of college I started to make steps to consider religious life.

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UPDATE ON ME!!

I started my last semester at Oswego STATE!! Boy is it an adjustment becoming acquained to living in the dorms again, and studying and wrting papers. The Lord strengthens me everyday!! In less than I week I will be making a step in my possible vocation to the Daughters of SAint Paul. I pray everyday to Jesus Christ~~~~ One thing I am lacking is patience!!! I need to be patient and wait for his will to be known!! I just want to jump on it and it doenst work like that!! I need to follow HIS WILL HIS WAY!!!!!!!

For all those struggling with school! this quote helps me to stay on track!!

Nail yourself to the Desk Like Christ to the Cross!!!!

Im in the process of writing my vocation journey!! one day in the future it will be posted!! maybe even someday it will be a book to inspire others to follow the way of JEsus!!

Temptation!!

Many of my blogs dont make any sense to anyone but me. These blogs are for me to write everything that I am feeling!! There has been so many thoughts and feelings going through my brain lately that I dont understand. I am afraid to let Christ love me completely! there are moments I have during prayer and mediation that I let Christ hold me and I give myself to him but something in me makes me upset like I am right now for feeling that I keep pushing Jesus away from me when I commit sins that are not in accordance with his word. Why we do have moments when we commits sins that we know are not what God wants from us but we go against his word. I blame original sin!! Adam and EVE!! But if we didnt have original sin we wouldnt go to Christ asking for strength to get through many of the tough situations in life. I need to the Lord more than ever these days!! I want to join religious life!! I am thinking in my mind right now that Christ is putting barriers in my way? Would christ put barriers in my way to see how much I am willing to do to follow his will!!! Thats an intersting question!!~! I know that Christ was tempted in the desert by the devil!!! But he did not succume to the temptation of the one who knows nothing!!! How did Jesus say no many times to The Devil in the desert!! I just read the notes on the side of my bible in Luke Chapter 4 verse two that Jesus was able to with stand the devil becasue he was blessed by the holy spirit. But arent I blessed with the holy spirit thus I would be able to over come my sins?

Mary's DAY!

Today is the assumption of the blessed Virgin Mary!! Like many Catholics I partipated in the holy day of obligaiton.Mary is an amazing woman who through her fear gave life to Jesus Christ! I need to listen to Christ and my mother in heaven!!! Please pray for the priesthood and religious life~~~

AMAZING!!

JESUS WILL NOT DISAPPOINT!!! In the upcoming weeks I will start to posts little stories about my come and see retreats to various communities!!! JEsus has and will never let me down!! I know this for certain!!!