Focus

If you take time out for the Lord during the day and focus on being relazed you will feel less anxious and more peaceful inside. Give all your struggles to the Lord!!! "Keep watch and pray so that you will not give into temptation. For the spirit is willing but the body is weak" (Mark 14:38)As long as I put my focus on the Lord and not my sins Jesus will not disappoint!! Do not dwell on the past but look towards the future and have faith!!! God be with you!!! Right now I feel at peace and I dont feel temptation in my life!! But when it comes to me I will face it with Christ by my side and me walking away from it!!!

Feelings about the will of GOd!

Sometimes its hard for me to move on from sins I commit!!! I know I shouldn't beat myself up when I do something that's against Jesus! but I am coming to the realization that I will falter at times. When I falter God will love me just the same. Its seems that my faltering is a blessing in disguise because every time I sin I want to pray and become closer to Jesus. So why do I feel like I'm the worst person in the world when I commit a sin. Its because I am a faithful and dedicated person who doesn't want to disappoint her Lord and savior. I am slowly ingraining it in my heart that when we do our best to serve and love Jesus that's all he wants us to do. Is to do our best. Sometimes I don't think my best is very good because I compare myself to other people and think I am no good because I'm not them. But you know what I'm not them. God created me in his likeness and image and I'm not like any other person in this world. God created me with the gift of faith, music and the perseverance. Everything I do I want to do my best in and I do this to make Jesus proud of me. Jesus is already proud of me and Loves me because he loves everything that he created. If I am faithful, open and honest to the Lord and let him love me Jesus will not disappoint!! :) For a while I was afraid to be open and honest to Jesus because I was afraid of what he would think of me. Ever since I let him into my heart on my retreat at the Daughters of Saint Paul in Boston MA I have wanted to go serve him where I found his love!! I want to serve God, I have a passion to serve God and when I graduate College I want to serve him through Consecrated life! If I wait I feel like I will be putting God on hold and I wont feel completely at peace until I go full force and follow his will! But I feel God is calling me to visit other religious orders to learn more about myself and to becoming deeper in my prayer life.

LEarning to Love myself

Even when we Sin Jesus will love and forgive us!! Through a friend I just realized that I am not a bad person. At times when I sin I feel like the worst person in the world. He help me to realize that a good person wouldnt discern gods will, help people out, and partipate in church activites. I learned God loved me in March when let him hold me but now I am learning to love myself even in sin. If I sin, I will ask JEsus to forgive me, and move on with a clean slate!!!!!