Temptation!!

Many of my blogs dont make any sense to anyone but me. These blogs are for me to write everything that I am feeling!! There has been so many thoughts and feelings going through my brain lately that I dont understand. I am afraid to let Christ love me completely! there are moments I have during prayer and mediation that I let Christ hold me and I give myself to him but something in me makes me upset like I am right now for feeling that I keep pushing Jesus away from me when I commit sins that are not in accordance with his word. Why we do have moments when we commits sins that we know are not what God wants from us but we go against his word. I blame original sin!! Adam and EVE!! But if we didnt have original sin we wouldnt go to Christ asking for strength to get through many of the tough situations in life. I need to the Lord more than ever these days!! I want to join religious life!! I am thinking in my mind right now that Christ is putting barriers in my way? Would christ put barriers in my way to see how much I am willing to do to follow his will!!! Thats an intersting question!!~! I know that Christ was tempted in the desert by the devil!!! But he did not succume to the temptation of the one who knows nothing!!! How did Jesus say no many times to The Devil in the desert!! I just read the notes on the side of my bible in Luke Chapter 4 verse two that Jesus was able to with stand the devil becasue he was blessed by the holy spirit. But arent I blessed with the holy spirit thus I would be able to over come my sins?

Mary's DAY!

Today is the assumption of the blessed Virgin Mary!! Like many Catholics I partipated in the holy day of obligaiton.Mary is an amazing woman who through her fear gave life to Jesus Christ! I need to listen to Christ and my mother in heaven!!! Please pray for the priesthood and religious life~~~