Being Blessed

I need prayer. I need Jesus. I am not alone in the striving to be Holy. I swear the theology of the body was created for me to see how much God loves us. He created us. He reedeemed us. He calls us to Live holy lives. Sister Mary Gabriel told me once. " Jesus loves you so much more because I am a sinner". He loves me soo much. At times I may struggle with that. But I must always prayer everyday. Wherever I am I can pray to JESUS. If Jesus calls me to live as a Sister of Life then I am really blessed. We are all blessed and I will thank God everyday for the gift of my vocation.

A Pictures from my excursion

The Lord works in mysterious ways

So I have not updated this in a while. This past weekend on went on a retreat to the Benedictine Nuns of Greenburgh PA. I never ever would imagine that my heart would wonder if I would ever join a cloister . I love to pray to Jesus and just give him soo much . There are things in this world that I love doing. I love going places, meeting new people and having fun with friends. I was given some great advice from the Sisters and esecially the 2 ladies that I met on retreat. I love all the Sisters. The prayer is soo intense. but maybe I need the intense sructrue in my prayer life to conquer the evil one and so I can live a chaste life. St. Emmas draws you to prayer, to the people. The people are soo nice, and you just feel so at home. I just love going places but when I was their I really didnt think about leaving. At times I thought about my schooling but that is expected seeing how it has given me so much struggling. But I think that when i finish my class I will have a peace in my heart. I want that peace. I want that journey to be complete. If it is the Lord will of course. So many places I have thought about and wanted to intitally join. I am not saying that I will be a benedictine but something about his place just makes me wonder if I could do the cloister thing, and be a nun that wakes up at 5 AM and prayer is her life. Could I do it every day 365 days a year. I do not know that answers yet but hte Lord will reveal himself to me if I make the Lord the center of my life and day and depend on him for everything. That is my one struggle. Fully trusting. and being hard on myself with all my struggles. I just need otbring it to him and everything will be fine. Go in PEACE. and if you ever feel down remember. Rise AND SHINE GIVE GOD THE GLORY (Thanks)!!!!!!!